Emotionally Retarded

i can't that say
i'm fully
emotionally retarded (compliments of Saudia)



maybe just a little a slow.







yesterday i got into an argument...well not really an argument because i never really argue. it was more like a discussion about something that i never really wanted to talk about in the first place. i hate when people hit me up with bad intentions it strikes up a side of me that i really rather not share too often. a piece of me just wanted to go tit for tat with all the sarcastic remarks. and tell him exactly what it was didn't want to hear, but i didn't want to give him that satisfaction. during the conversation something was said that shouldn't have ever been said. not on my part, but his. & i'm sure he noticed because there was an awkward pause in the conversation. just enough time for him to think about what he had just said to me & wait for my reaction. i didn't react. atleast not in anyway that he could of noticed. all sorts of thoughts were running through my mind...mainly that this was going to be our absolute last conversation. but he continued on and my already short answers were transformed into a simple okay. no matter what it was all i could say was okay. after he was done talking. i told a couple of friends about it & we laughed. i really did think it was funny. it wasnt until today that i realized how much it had hurt me.

i can think of one person who'll read this & think it's about him, but no your not that important. & he'll probably read this & not even think twice. thats just how BIG of an insensitive prick he is.