according to my sister i am the person to be
she just called me to tell me that she put my picture on her desk at work
& this guy passed by her desk looked at my pic
"shes really pretty & i think i know her"
she said she quickly came to my defense
(what was there to be defensive about? i still haven't figured that out myself)
she replied to him
"thats my LITTLE sister you don't know her..she doesn't smoke weed, she doesn't club, she doesn't hang out in the streets...you don't know her"
(i love how she always puts the emphasis on little ..lol)
so the guy is like okaaaay..i don't know her then
then she started telling me how she realized that she doesn't really even know me...i never tell her about anything other than my travels..so she started asking me all these questions
do i go to the club?
where do i like to hang out?
...but...
most of the time its not even that i don't want too..i can't! the tears just don't come to me
i feel the same pain ...just no tears
after i answered her she told me that she didn't think i ever cried..that i seem too guarded to ever let someone hurt me..she wished that she could be me for a day..so strong
i didn't reply i just kinda changed the subject
but it's funny cause i've always felt the opposite..i've always admired those people who could cry...who were brave enough to take the risk and let ppl get close enough to hurt them ...so i guess to me ...she's the person to be
its funny how things work out
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i never thought i would ever hear someone say they want to cry. seems crazy but after reading what you wrote it makes sense. i guess even a little bit of tears every now and then is a good thing
No more should tears be a sign of weakness, instead tears should be seen as what they truly are, a sign of emotion. So i say CRY! Cry until your making the crying sound but nothing is coming down. I too have been hurt and have experienced a lot of death. And have yet to shed a tear in more than two years. Like you...i hear people saying that they wish they was as strong as me. Only if they understood that its not that I'm not emotionless or you're not emotionless. Its just that sometimes people like you and I dont feel that our pain should be shared with the world, and its something that we ourselves need to get through...thus making us stronger in the end. So when you do think about it, people like you and I just might be as strong as what people say we are.. But, only if society knew the struggle we go through to get to this point.
CRYING IS MORE THAN JUST SIGN OF EMOTION. IT'S A WAY TO RELIEVE STRESS AND TAKE SOME THE PRESSURE. SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED TO CRY
I used to be the same way, but one day I just reached my breaking point. I couldn't hold it in anymore. Don't let things build up your bound for a breakdown
I do agree that crying is more that just an emotion. I didn't mean for it to come out like that. When showing an emotion one is relieving that stress they have that is bottled up...now that stress can be anger...tears...or happiness...pretty much what I was trying to say is that...showing emotions is a good thing!
hey, the first thing babies do when they come out after breathe is cry. crying is more natural than emotional. but you know, when you been thru a lot of shit and trauma, it gets harder and harder..
hey, the first thing babies do when they come out after breathe is cry. crying is more natural than emotional. but you know, when you been thru a lot of shit and trauma, it gets harder and harder..
wow. this sounds like me and my little sister and its kind of scary because i see her growing up right in front of my eyes but i have no clue whats going on in her head.i just hope its all positive.
do you have any suggestions as to what i should do to get closer to her?
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